Glee 5, Brittana Endgame? And BFF?

Because I hate the new (NY) Santana, I don't watch Glee as much as I did. But the 100th episode promotion told me there would be Brittana.

Yeah. but still, I don't like it.

I'd rather see Arizona and Callie's struggle than Brittana. Or Bo and Lauren's.

There is a funny news from the newspaper, in Michigan 300 gay/lesbian couple marital state are unclear. The government stopped the gay married after allowing it for just, one day? Or less.

Damn shit, you are.

Do you remember that I wrote about BFF? My ex BFF (I don't really like this term) mesagged me that her mom was wheeled into my city's hospital ER. She asked if I was free, and I said yes, I was and if she needed me, I'd come to help.

The next day, knowing that her mom was in Intermediate care, I came to the hospital in a rush after attending a morning report. Alfin wasn't there. I talked to her big sister and her mom, grateful that she was in a good condition after hemodialysis procedure. I waited an hour or more and then we met.

I had no fucking idea that she was pregnant. Her second child.

She asked me, when will I follow her, being married and pregnant. She knew my orientation, we had kissed in the past and now she's asking me to marry a man and get pregnant?

Hey, n1n, when will you become a straight one?

Straight my ass.

I wondered why I came this far, keeping a BFF term for her but from the day we had started to know each other up until now I didn't think she understand me.

In a mild sarcasm I told her that it I do not want to follow her path. She told me, you never change. So I told her that I didn't understand why she had texted me last year and telling me that I'm changed if right now she told me that I'm still the same person she used to know. Why she'd texted me that, and the fact it was her who had changed.

She couldn't answer me. I was so disapointed, I felt that I'd rather never had this conversation and let her judge me as she wish.

After parting, she texted me that I never change. I didn't reply it. I said to myself, people didn't change. They evolved.

But I don't think she'll understand it.

Yang Malam Mingguan Sama Pacarnya Kudoain Putus...

Demikian, serangan umum satu Maret kukerahkan pada seluruh khalayak yang berpacaran malam Minggu ini.

I have a blue Saturday night, it means today. No partner and no friends. Erna is busy, went back to her hometown to prepare her wedding ceremony. Nick is busy, she's getting close with her fellow worker. Heningswara is out somewhere. I was thinking about go to the cinema alone but, the rain made me stay at home. Alone. So, I'm updating my gadgets and during the heavy rain the wi-fi works slowly.

So, I'm wandering around, in the internet I mean.
There's no good fan fiction I found to read, so I'm just surfing from blog to blog. Damn, I'm craving for some rum raisin ice cream and only find Teh Botol in my refrigerator.

I should've read my textbooks, but I'm in a very bad mood.

Although it's raining but the temperature in my house rises, my elementary school friend messages me via Facebook and I'm only replying her with one or two words. Cool? Nop. I feel sorry for her, she is just a nice friend that said hello but instead of getting a nice and warm reply, she only got my tantrums. Yeah, and she's asking about my father whereabouts. I said, daddy's gone.

I'm thinking about writing this blog in English from now. I know I'm not good in using this language, but I'd like to learn and be more friendly to the non-Indonesian speaker.

Back to my elementary school friend, she told me that my ex now's a policeman. He moved from his old house (I knew it years ago, when I passed his house and found the building he used to live had already gone), and she asked me if I know something about him.

A couple years ago, he contacted me in sudden, asked me if I'm home. He took me out to the cinema and we're watching a weird movie about a killer from the orphanage (I don't really remember about the plot). After we went out, he texted me, about I'm being his first love, etc. Frankly, I don't even remember being in love with him. I knew him long ago, before I knew what is love, and I feel safe with him. He was a good man, and I don't want to hurt his pride. So, I said no and asked him not to waste his time (on me). I don't want to share this story with other friend who knows him, it's between me and him. But he never mentioned about joining an army or other that time.

I'm getting used to attending my exs's wedding day. I'm not surprised if one day the policeman asked me to come to his.

So, a sudden idea bursts in my mind, how about we're making a reunion. This isn't a fresh idea, me and some fellow alumni talked about it when we're attending our teacher's death ceremony. This is a very heavy duty, since we got no yearbook and even though we had, some friends might be moved from their old addresses. Yeah, may be we would had difficulties, but I'd like to put it in my agenda for the next year.

Ok, I think I had enough babbling.